I haven’t been on here in so long, i honestly forgot i had this. but its nice to be back:). thank god my life has gotten back to normal, i cut the bitches out and added everyone i wanted to add. it sucks when you lose friends but honestly, who cares? “everything happens for a reason” and i need to remind myself that all the time. if they were people that i needed in my life then they would be in my life. its a pretty simple concept its just hard to fully accept. but eric and i are on good terms again. i really think we will date one day again. the thought of that makes me so happy but at the same time it scares me, only because i want to be with him so badly that i don’t want to fuck it up. i can’t keep fucking things up with him. but then again i need to take a step back because in my crazy head i look at dating him as being engaged to him (hear me out). i love him more than anyone, he is the only person i have EVER been scared to loose, so when i have him i don’t want to lose him. i like obsess over it and become to clingy and thats when we fight, i mean he’s not perfect but i now know that I’m not either. I’m young, but no matter who I’ve been with i only think about him. he is better than anyone i have ever met in my life and no one can ever compare to him, ever. maybe i compare us dating to us being engaged because he is the only person i can see myself marrying. whatever it doesn’t matter, I’m fully 100%  happy with him and i wouldn’t change a thing <3